My secret
I’m gonna let you in on a little secret. As optimistic as I am about what God is doing in all of this, I still have moments of extreme stress. Not fear, but stress. I think it may be that feeling that comes with being completely out of control and having no idea what is going to happen next, considering the “what ifs,” and "what the heck am I going to do about the kids?!" Monday morning I received an alert from my watch that told me my heart rate rose above 120 BPM while lying in bed. I was freaking out and didn’t even realize it. It not only alerted me to what was going on in my heart. . . but what was going on in my heart. Does anyone else out there who trusts God identify with that? God understands. He created us. He knows there will be moments, or even longer periods of time where we struggle. The important thing is that we get out of our own heads and remember He is who He says He is. He will do what He says He will do. He said that He would always be with us.