Christina Speaks

All week friends have sent me messages or made comments when we talked, mentioning what a crazy week it seems I’ve had. Every time I’m like, “No, I’m good.” My random struggles are nothing compared to so many. It’s all relative. But then I looked back at a few things that may have truly been a bit “crazy” in my life over the last seven days. I watched my husband sleeping and thought I might need to perform an exorcism based on the sounds coming out of his mouth and nose.   Our dog “disappeared” after falling through our kitchen floor when a contractor was working on it, and I literally considered that the Lord might have taken him to Heaven in a fiery chariot like Elijah in the Bible (He’s 16-yrs-old, and it’s time). I looked at a woman in a car behind me through my rearview mirror at a drive-through and thought she had a bulbous head like aliens we see in movies, and thought maybe I could finally “see” things that I couldn’t before, just like “Men in Black.”  I thought I shou...

A lot is going on in our lives, and we say it all the time—“Let go and let God.” But I think we need to start looking at that phrase differently. We are often using it as a cop-out, and letting go just sends us straight into paralysis. Oftentimes, we are holding on so tight to our will that we won’t accept His. It’s not always just about “letting” God. A lot of the time, we should be the ones who move. Sometimes we need to make the decision, or step out in obedience to do something we are called to do but are too afraid to do it. Perhaps there is someone we need to forgive, or another one we need to have a tough conversation with. Maybe there’s a relationship we need to let go of but don’t know how to live without.   We must LET GO of our own faulty will and TRUST God to help us do the hard things.  Trust that if He’s called us to do it, He’s going to help us through it, and what comes out on the other side will be the best possible situation, working for our good and His...

Most of you know that my wallet was taken a few days ago, so I had to get a new one at the DMV yesterday. Of course, I was slightly dreading having to go because… The DMV. However, I was surprised and quite pleased to find that the whole process took about fifteen minutes. It only took that long because I had to find two proofs of residence to give them in order to get the new REAL ID. But I was able to screenshot a couple of documents from my phone and use those. It took a little time for me to do that, and the lady was so very patient with me. Once all of that was done, she sent me to have my picture taken. I didn’t even have to wait for that! I put on my best smile, signed my name in the little electronic box, got my license, and went on my way. On my way home, I marveled at how fast the whole thing went. I thought about the importance we put on that little card, but it doesn’t show who I truly am. The experience reminded me of how many of us have lost our identities. Sometimes ...

Do you ever feel you have nothing left to give? I have days like that when I feel like I have nothing of value to give to you all. Sometimes it’s because I’m in a bad mood, feeling exhausted, or perhaps it’s just a day I’m not feeling or hearing the Lord.  I was feeling a little bit that way last night when I came upon a post by @sethlinaamakye. She explained how sometimes that happens to her, and she made me feel normal and less alone in my experience.  When you are a person who’s committed to a ministry like this, you want to encourage those who trust you to bring a message each day, but sometimes you can’t find it within you. Maybe some of you feel that way about your families, jobs, friends, or something else you want to give your all. I am learning that the days I feel I have nothing to give, are often the days I share the most important and meaningful messages because it’s 100% the Lord. There’s nothing left of me to get in the way.  Often on days like those, I find...

  Yesterday, I was attacked.  It’s a longer story than usual, so I hope you can hang in here with me. This past weekend I spent time in Georgia and was honored to do some things to serve others, and represent Jesus. I also spent time with my precious Godfamily and heard an excellent sermon from their pastor about how God often allows suffering, even if we live good lives serving the Lord. He explained what a difficult and discouraging week he had, then shared the story of Job and how after so many things had gone wrong in his life, his wife and friends told him to curse God and die. He reminded us that God is always good, even when bad things happen. He reminded us that our pain is never wasted and that sometimes we are allowed to struggle because something in it may teach someone else a lesson. It’s not always about us. I didn’t feel like it was a message for me because things had been going well.  HA. Fast forward to my drive home. I was exhausted and stopped for coffee...

There’s a stirring deep within me. I wonder if you feel it too. The last year has unearthed something in me. There’s a part of Esther 4:14 that keeps jumping out at me, and I believe it’s a call to action. “... 𝗪𝗵𝗼 𝗸𝗻𝗼𝘄𝘀 𝗶𝗳 𝗽𝗲𝗿𝗵𝗮𝗽𝘀 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝘄𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝗺𝗮𝗱𝗲 𝗾𝘂𝗲𝗲𝗻 𝗳𝗼𝗿 𝗷𝘂𝘀𝘁 𝘀𝘂𝗰𝗵 𝗮 𝘁𝗶𝗺𝗲 𝗮𝘀 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝘀?” Many of you have been feeling some kinda way. Something’s been stirring inside of you too. You’ve felt restless, or maybe depressed. You’ve felt that there’s more to your life than what you see. There is a reason for that. Yes queens. We have been called.  At this point, I instinctually feel that I should go into all of the Biblical examples of women in leadership found in the Word to show those who think women are only called to remain silent. But I won’t. That’s not my problem. The Lord calls men AND women, but I feel deep in my heart, this is a significant time for us women. What I do feel is wrong is for us to be stifled, restricted, or prevented...

I spent some time reflecting yesterday. I can hardly believe we are halfway through the year. Last year is almost a blur. Almost. 2020 wasn’t what we thought it would be, was it? So many thought it would be the year of perfect vision, right? Well, in my opinion, it was. Hindsight is 20/20. Look back for a moment. Many doors were shut, but many more doors were opened. Folks got creative. There was political and racial unrest, but so much was brought out of the darkness into the light. Some of us actually learned to love better. We learned more about ourselves and about the people we live with. I can’t help but smile and think of ‭‭James‬ ‭1:2-4. “Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles of any kind come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. So let it grow, for when your endurance is fully developed, you will be perfect and complete, needing nothing.” I mean, right? Can you see it? ...